my PTL hospital stay...

Oh man just looking at this picture makes me want to cry a little. I was so lonely, and always looked forward to James and Eden coming up to say hi to me. And then when they left i felt even more lonely. James was amazing! He was stuck with a load that wasn't all his to carry and he carried it with grace. He is a very wonderful husband and father. i think we cried more together that week than we have our whole marriage. Emotionally being stuck at the hospital while my family was at home was really hard (for me and for them). Not knowing when id go home, and why i'd be able to go home. Wanting to be tough for Deacon. Wanting to be encouraging to James. Wanting to be mommy to Eden. And wanting to be happy for everyone who stopped by for a visit. But i was tired, and sore. Although praise Jesus for his peace. I think I only had passing worry about how things would turn out. For the most part I just felt the Lords calm in my heart, He had me and Deacon in His hands. Which really just confirmed in our hearts that the name we had chosen for the baby was the right one, and God led. Deacon Zechariah "a servant Jehovah remembers", he is and the Lord does, amen!
This picture makes me smile! My sisters are truly precious! For the time they were there I was almost completely distracted. listening to them complaining about how terrible my toes were, and what color would i want after they cleaned them up. And looking at all the PJ outfits Virginia had painstakingly put together, if pjs could be stylish i was styling. Just the fact that she took time away from her sick family (both giti and ellis had respiratory infections)to come and pamper me was humbling. Keely God bless her, and her 5 month pregnant self stayed the night and helped me to the bathroom. Which i had to have because the medicine they had me on made my muscles so week i was wobbly, not to mention i was hooked up to several machines that had to be unplugged and adjusted and then readjusted. She slept in the awful little chair bed thing. And had to listen to the nurse from jersey come in every hour to make sure i was still breathing, talking about blood draws and blood pressure and fluid output.

Anyway they were such blessings to me, i love them deeply!

While the hospital was interesting im so glad im home! Thank you Jesus.